The
Leper spent the last two years helping the Low Priest put together his Cadre.
Using some of her connections in the police force, as well as her knowledge and
instincts regarding psychology, she helped him select the right sort of group
to help him with his cause.
It had been a great help to her to
do this. It gave her a purpose, an aim to keep her eyes on in place of her
pain. She was grateful to the Low Priest for this. It’s why she’d taken on the
identity he gave her so readily. He’d, in a somewhat perverse way, saved her.
So,
when she considered dying, it wasn’t necessarily for her sake that she
hesitated. The Low Priest had grown to depend on her.
He was a persuasive type,
charming, articulate, handsome to some. And he had resources as well. A modest
inheritance from his fiscally conservative father. But, what he lacked, and
what she had provided to him, was intuition and imagination. The poor boy, he’d
been raised religious. His folks had discouraged any semblance of fanciful
thinking. Everything had to be so straightforward and logical with him. Whereas
her, she was a bit more free thinking.
She smiled to herself sometimes at
the thought of him choosing her. Even that was such a cookie cutter first
choice. Woman who lost her family in a fire and had nothing left to live for.
Could you get more obvious?
It’d worked out for him, though.
She was his perfect partner
It was her who decided on the
library as an initial target. “We need to attack a place that makes people feel
vulnerable,” he’d said. But then, he’d gone on to suggest City Hall or the
Courthouse or the Mayor’s Mansion. Showing off that limited vision. The death
of public figures, sure, it’d cause a commotion. People might panic. But, would
it be a tragedy? Would people look into the faces of their children and fear
they’d lose them? No. For that, they would need to strike at a place where
anybody might find themselves. He’d fought her over this for a while. Insisted
it was too small. But she stood her ground. Stood her ground and eventually
won. She was a cop and he was a preacher’s kid. He really didn’t stand a
chance.
Would he, then, be able to manage
without her? He would have to, she concluded. It was time for her to go.
The Leper took the glass flasks
from the clock and palmed them in a fist. She stood, her hands raised, and
turned to face the push-cart librarian.
“What
is that smell?” the librarian asked.
“Kerosene,”
said the Leper.
“Kerosene?”
said the librarian, fear taking hold of her features, “What exactly are you
planning?”
What
the Leper had been planning was a simple act of hit and run arson. The intent
was to set the alarm on the clock to a couple of minutes, make her way to the
front, and wait for the clock hammer to drop. This would crack open the vials,
thereby mixing their chemicals, spark a flame meant to disseminate through the
library, and, just as everyone’s attention turned to that, the Leper would turn
her kerosene tin into a Molotov cocktail and set fire to the exit before making
her escape.
But the librarian had thrown off
the plan. Thrown it off but maybe for the best. Because, even though the Low
Priest had gifted her with something to aim at, the truth was, at her
periphery, the pain was always there. The episode with her son’s book confirmed
it. Maintaining her gaze, maintaining it for two years, she was realizing it
only then, but, it had been wearying. Like a soldier who’s trudged through a
firefight, taking bullets, watching his friends die around him, and now, has
finally reached the assailant, grabbed them, choked them, killed them. All
that’s left to do is collapse to the ground and die.
With that settled, she cast the
two vials to the floor.
The
fire spread across the kerosene like a lightning bolt filling the sky. In an
instant, the Children’s section was swallowed in flame. The fire sprang easily,
quickly, to other sections. The books made for excellent kindling. And there
was no hope of stopping it. The sprinklers, the fire alarms, both had been
disabled by the Leper earlier. This building was fated to burn.
A scream erupted from the
cart-librarian. It was followed by that of a patron, then another, another,
another, until there was a chorus of screams coming from everywhere. Then, the
bustle of panic, people running, trampling each other, fighting to escape.
Some, the Leper knew, would make it out in time. Not all, though. She’d claim
her share of victims, there was no doubt of that. One of which would be
herself.
She walked forth through the
flames like a phantom surveying the chaos she had caused. She herself was
aflame, burning away, dying already. But she didn’t feel it, she couldn’t. All
she felt was the unquenchable void in her, that part of her desperate for
revenge, trying to fill, but ultimately, falling short of full. Even in the
midst of all this suffering, she discovered, there was no satisfaction. Perhaps
in death she would find it. With that thought in mind, she collapsed among the
others.
It was the smoke that had got her.
It’d filled her lungs, filled her brain, robbed her of her cognition just as it
had that night in her home. And with it, a vision came. In the orange blades of
the flames, she saw her family, reaching out to her from behind a pile of
rubble. She stretched her hands toward them, shrieking for them, shrieking as
some of the patrons were doing even now for their own loved ones. She never
reached them. Just as she was to touch their fingers, a fireman had lifted her
up onto his shoulder, ripping her away from them forever. But now, she could be
with them, finally. In the bliss of the abyss, they would be together. Yes,
wasn’t that going to be nice?
All around her, the building collapsed and
burned. She too, burned. With nothing left to reach for this time, she welcomed
the darkness that threatened to take her. Let it sweep through her like an
elixir. The crackle of the fire around her grew faint. Her victims’ screams as
well. Into peace she finally passed, her life, or what passed for it, leaving
her with a cough.
What waited for her afterward is not
for us to say.
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